Posted by Tatum on July 19, 2008 at 19:06:18:
It's funny how i feel that i can come to this page and you can really hear me. Even though i talk to you all the time, i feel when i write to you hear, what i say really gets to you. These last few days have been a little rough. I really need you right now. I go to church every sunday and pray to god for help, but it is really you that i need. I need you to help me through this horrible time with ma right now. I need you to give me strength to get up every day and help me deal with whats going on. To have the patience to deal with her struggle. Every day i wake up she is getting worse, and there isnt anything anyone can do to help her, and i know that you went through the same thing, only i never got the chance to see you go through it, or help you. I am here now, face to face with this disease that cannot be cured. How do you deal with knowing that someone that you love is dying more and more everyday. Not just physically dying but emotionally also. Pray for me and watch over me now. I love you big brother. And i miss you more than you could ever know. Talk to you soon. Love your baby sister.
Dad, i know you come here all the time and read the messages left. Thank you for being there. I need you just as much as i need this message board. I will talk to you soon. Love You.